Today is 5 days into the new year. So far I have survived. Wish I could say I am magically happy and everything is roses, but I'm still breathing. For the moment, that's enough.
Tomorrow is a big day for Ravyn....and possibly a bigger day for me. My sweet, adorable little blue-eyed baby girl will get her drivers license. I'm proud and scared to death. She has no idea how hard it will be for me to let her go out into the world. She's my baby after all. Now she is my only child.
I am so proud of her and look forward to seeing where life will take her. I pray the Lord will make me strong enough to let her spread her wings enough to fly. I want to hold her close, to protect her and keep her near me. I am selfish.
Wow. How did this day get here so quickly? It scares me how much like me she can be one moment, then in the next breath she is so incredibly different than I am. I hope that will make her a safe driver and awesome person. Lord please give me strength to survive.
As excited for her as I am, I cant help but be a little sad too. Gage wanted to drive so bad and never once got the opportunity. I know it had to have been so hard for him to watch his little sister drive while he couldnt. I know he's looking down rooting her on though. That's just how he is. Was.
One more day that is both happy and sad. I guess there will be lots of those before I learn how to handle everything. I love you Ravyn, in case you're reading this. Gage loved you so much more than you ever realized. I am proud of you.
NO TEXTING AND DRIVING!!!
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